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Kimberly
16 May 2012 @ 12:01 am
Hey guys. I don't post near as often as I should. I've been really busy! First with school and then.. well, some really bad things happened to me and I had to do some very drastic things to get rid of it. But I wouldn't have had the ability or the strength to do it without my wonderful boyfriend Dan by my side, though. We've been going out for a month now and he treats me as wonderfully as he did on the first day. There was a small scrape there about a week and a half back, but in a way, it made me realize my faults and made me understand that I was putting all this pressure on him without intending to, so I've been trying to improve myself so I can be a better girlfriend and a better person.

I have a lot of things wrong with me, but I hope I can get it better. I have a really good support group and plenty of good people behind me to catch me if I fall. Sorry for the sappy post, but.. that's pretty much it.


Sincerely,
Kim
 
 
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
 
 
Kimberly
18 April 2012 @ 11:07 am
WHAT THIS THIS MADNESS? This is a post.. I think.

I abandon my poor little LJ so very often. I love to blog, but I need to learn to do it more.. or ramble and spam and all that good stuff.  

.. wait, what am I supposed to write about? Something fantastic. Okay, let's see.. I have a boyfriend now? One that isn't a scumbag, first and foremost. He's absolutely adorable except when he decides to be a bastard and tickle me. That's okay, though, I'll let it slide. I'm also moving back to Colorado. Fuuuuu Wyoming. I really just can't stand it here. People here are so.. ugh.

And uh, I dropped AFROTC. Going to Army Basic instead. THAT IS ALL.


- Kim
 
 
Kimberly
12 November 2011 @ 08:38 pm
So give me your addresses. Everything is screened. I won't be making my cards this year, but they will have drawings and an explanation on why I am cooler than you.
 
 
Kimberly
08 November 2011 @ 11:11 am
You know how a lot of people are so keen to hate on bullies and people who tell it like it is (or are cruel for the sake of it? Doesn't that strike anyone as.. ironic? When you think about it, by getting upset and saying ugly things about people like bullies, you're really bullying them.. and we don't want to bully anyone, right?

Me, I understand that a world of complete peace isn't attainable. We can wish for it all we want, but the fact of the matter is that there will always be violence, there will always be hate, and there will always be war. It's the one thing we can guarantee in this world, sad as it may be. I don't think we should fight to eliminate this. Doesn't that seem mean? No, we should learn how to take it in, to use it to our advantage, and rise above it.

I get yelled at all the time for my view on this. People are al, "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND" blahblahblah. Let me make a note that I was bullied all through school due to my introvertism, was diagnosed with depression at 10, and have made attempts. It is what it is and I'm  not going to deny it. But I had a good mother, a mother who told me that I should never start a fight, but win every fight started for me. That's what I did.

We coddle our children too much in this world anymore. Have you noticed that? If you look at the trends, the more protective a generation gets, the higher the suicide rates. If that isn't proof of something, I don't know what is.


Sincerely,
Kidd
 
 
Kimberly
07 November 2011 @ 09:58 am
Just so you know.

I have a birthday on the 20th. AWWWWWWWWWWWYEAH.
 
 
 
Kimberly
03 October 2011 @ 11:15 am
Recently, I've had my eye on a very special cadet in my flight. He was the first to talk to me, the first to converse, and the first to try to be my friend. I know it's only been a month, but he's really, really special to me, whether we get together or not.

I suppose we're halfway there. Both of us had urges, mostly because I'm a whore and he hadn't been with a woman in seven years, so we decided to kill it mutually. It was weird.. for me. He took the time to ask what I wanted to do, to make sure I was happy.. and he wasn't afraid to touch me. I know that sounds weird, but men normally see me as a rag doll. Fuck, but don't look. This time was different. Completely.. different. Admittedly, it scared me.

I told him that I'd fight for him, but I'm not sure how hard I'd go. I said it out for fear and I'm slapping my forehead for it. He's different than anyone has ever been! How am I supposed to react? I don't know.. I don't want to seem clingy or obsessive, but I really like him. God, the way he treats me, I think I love him. I love the way he looks at me with coral green-blue eyes, how he kisses on my neck and curls up with me when we went to sleep, how he did the same to wake me up. He let me sleep in on Sunday, too, and never once told me to get out. When we had to go, he walked me home, and I know I took a chunk out of his study time. But he let me be there, and it meant the world.

I just can't get him out of my damn head. What if I lose? I know I've got competition.. but.. I just. I don't even know. What if I lose this one? Sometimes, I wonder how much more my heart can handle any heartbreak.

No. I like him and he likes me. Sometimes bound to happen, but both of us are training to be commissioned officers. Either way, there's bound to be a moment of heartbreak. But I hope I get to be with him.

At least for a little while longer. It's the little whiles that count, and now I've had someone amazing in my life.


Sincerely,
Kidd
 
 
Kimberly
25 September 2011 @ 08:31 pm
I think it's eighteen.

I gotta stop lying about coming back, so here's the truth: the Air Force pretty much owns my entire life right now. Sorry! But I've met a super cute and amazing guy.. o//3//o

WHHHHHHATEVER, fuck yeah lions!


Sincerely,
Kidd.
 
 
Kimberly
15 August 2011 @ 10:45 am
 Wowwww, haven't been on in a while. My internet was just too crappy to get a chance to log on and whatnot. Missed my gryffs so fucking much, you have no idea.

But now I'm back! LET THE MAI-ING COMMENCE! also the Portal 2ness. LEMON GRENADES!


Sincerely,
Kidd
 
 
Kimberly
24 July 2011 @ 11:35 pm
CLICK IT

Sorry. This post is going to be entirely devoted to BOYFRANS because omg, how the fuck did I snag such a hottie? AND HE WEARS GLASSES DURING THE DAY and I'm just pretty much all YES FUCKING SCORE MAN.

SORRY I JUST HAVE TOOOOOO. qUq He's so cute and quirky and adorable and kind and pretty much me, but a foot taller and with a penis. Yup. I feel so lucky just to be with him.

Unfortunately, Toph has to work a lot, so I don't get to see him unless it's an evening and it's early on. And normally I have to spend the night so he can get sleep, but that's not a problem because I like sleeping next to him. He is comfy cozy and just a really awesome, awesome, awesome guy. c:

OKAY SORRY I HAD TO OTHERWISE I WOULD SPAM IT EVERYWHERE which I have. oops.
 
 
Sincerely,
Kidd
 
 
Kimberly
23 July 2011 @ 08:20 pm
I HAVE A BOYFRANNNN

I HAVE A BOYFRANNNN

I feel so guilty feeling so happy about this, though. One of my greatest online friends, Jenn, isn't doing so hot. Her disease is beginning to win and there's nothing I can do to save her. I just.. it really kills me that she's dying and I can't do anything about it.

I love her. She is one of the kindest people I've ever known. She was the one who donated 100 dollars to me just so I felt like I actually mattered in the world. It was amazing and I'll never forget it. I'll never forget her, no matter what happens.

She is just.. amazing. There's no words to describe the awesomeness that is Jenn.

There's just.. I wish there was a miracle.

Please let there be a miracle. Please God? You've given me the miracle of Toph.. please give my friend the miracle she needs to live. Please. Please. Please.


Sincerely,
Kidd